Day One.

So here it goes.
I made a blog.
This is what boredom and planning ahead does to me. I have decided that although most of my days lately have been spent in a very low key manner, soon they will get more exciting. Why not start this now.

My life was pretty different a few months ago. I was settled into new home, a [very] small dorm room in Chicago. I had gotten used to my classes, my new friends, my urban playground, having chapel brought within steps of my bed twice a week. I thought I had decided a major and I was tenatively planning on living on that exact block in that exact city for the next 3 to 4 years of my life. My problem is i get comfortable too easily. And comfort to me is something I have learned to recognize as a problem. We are not meant to be comfortable in this world. This world that isn't ours. Especially while so many of our brothers and sisters are living their lives in the almost opposite of comfort of today's evils. After the initial settling calm that I faced with knowing my future, another feeling came to me. The one feeling that I know more than all others to be the voice of God in my head. The feeling of complacency. And so the unrest set in. I began to question my future, my major, my college choice, and ultimately my purpose in this world. I knew I was in Chicago for a reason, I was yet to know that reason was to know I was supposed to be somewhere else. So here I am, having spent 12 grand on an epiphany that I wish would have come cheaper. I dropped out of higher education in a society that statistically tells me I'll never go back. Am i crazy? probably. Do i care? not so much.

The new plan.
Spend the remainder of spring back in my parents home where last fall I swore I would never live again. Sit at home looking for means of an income while telling myself that even without finding work I am spending less money than I would have been. All the while repeating my montra that I am doing all of this with a purpose. With an end in sight. I will be in Germany in September. Living my dream. I will be playing guitar and taking photographs and learning about Jesus. I will make lifetime friends and take career changing pictures and I will find my niche in this world.

I will have excitements and disappointments (and most likely photographic evidence of both). So join me. This will be the first of many words from my brain. And I'm sure not the most interesting.